goodbye. x.

i haven't written in a while. things have been a bit busy.

i went to the halloween party at shelley's place, but i wasn't there for long. i was there, however, long enough to get drunk and have a fight with shelley. i haven't spoken to her since, and i wish we'd never had that stupid fight but i'm still annoyed at her at the same time. on sunday i stayed in bed with one of the biggest hangovers i've ever had, feeling like a dickhead. fun.

this week i had an interview that went well, but i didn't get the job. i really need to get a job, hopefully before christmas. i'm sick of not doing anything. if i still dont have anything next year, i'm gonna go do a tafe course. it'll give me a certificate and something to do at least.

anyway, thats all. i'm going out soon.

my teeth weren't all rotten and i dont need them all removed. i just had a few cavaties and needed a few fillings. i got two done yesterday. the one that was killing me, and one opposite that. i'm on a waiting list for the others. my mouth was numb for about an hour and i was hungry as, which was a little bit funny. i didn't know whether i was eating my meal, or my tongue.

i can feel one of the fillings though, and i dont know whether its because i keep tongueing it, or because its bodged. i dunno.

the halloween party is this saturday. should be good.

so, i've finally made an appointment with the dentist at the free clinic in blacktown. i was expecting a huge waiting list of at least a month, but after talking to the nurse and explaining what was wrong, she managed to fit me in on thursday. i'm scared of the dentist. he'll probably have to take the tooth out. he'll probably look at the rest of my teeth and suggest i remove them too.

my teeth aren't funky looking or anything. they're just full of fillings and probably a million cavaties. i really should have listened to my mother when i was younger.

i really need to stop eating so badly. lately i've been eating so much shit. lollies, chocolate, vanilla coke, thick shakes, takeaway... ugh. i dont know whats wrong with me, usually i'm pretty healthy, and i need to get back into that.

a little exercise wouldn't hurt either.

a bit over a month ago i broke my tooth. the last one up top on the left, and it didn't hurt at all until just recently. its really starting to drive me up the fucking wall, i tell you. i need to see a dentist, which isn't cheap, and i'm unemployed and really cannot afford it. i might have to call dad and ask for a hand. i'm so seriously about to rip the fucker out with a set of pliers myself.

the death toll on the bali bombing is really getting quite high. its so sad and scary. i almost feel sick watching the news or opening up the paper. so many faces filled with tears and heartbreak.

me and mic have had a quiet week, which has been really good for mic. he's really needed this. we've watched tv, and played the 64, and just hung out a whole lot. tonight we're going to the movies to see the nugget with karen. i love australian films.

danielle's back. we picked her up from the station yesterday morning looking very glad to be home and tired. she seemed to have alot of fun away at dad's so thats good. she bought me a frame and put a photo of the two of us in it which was sweet, and i've been happily munching on my rock candy, which cant be good for my already bad teeth.

i had a quiet weekend. i went up and stayed at shelley's place on saturday night, and we drank and talked all night until we fell into bed. its good to be able to spend time with her everynow and then. i didn't get up to much else.

mic has annual leave all this week, which is really good. he works 7 days a week and really deserves this time off. it'll be nice to spend the week with him.

anyway, dinner is almost ready, so i'll be off.

with danielle gone, the house has been so quiet lately. sometimes she can annoy the hell out of me, and she knows that, but her craziness keeps me pretty sane at the same time. it'll be good when she gets home. it sounds like she's having a good time.

and she got my rock candy from suga, so i'm happy.

i had such a nice long weekend. we didn't even do anything. we watched a few videos. we slept in. i let mic beat my ass at monopoly (i owned the whole last length of the board too). we lounged around. i went to shelley's father's place with her for a bbq. see. nothing to exciting. it was just really relaxing.

nothing yet planned for this week. i have a few job applications to send off today so that might change. we'll see.